Little did I, I did English writing :)

It was a bit uncomfortable to spend my hard earned cash in US and it has never been enough. The guy from Third world country with the hope of experiencing the new things which has only seen in the movie was me. US welcomed me lively as if she was a flight attendant who are supposed to be charm and hospitable. 

Now I am on my way back to my country and I am sure I will be boasting my adventure whenever I have the space to talk. Although you are sharing your experiences with friends, they will call you a boast.Of course!They will listen my words at one of the restaurants by having a sip of beer and a gaze towards beautiful passerby ladies. You know that would be my treat and believe me that 90% of Myanmar people will be happy when they ignite the sensation of the recent first solo international trip. Needless to say that 

I will talk about the monuments, the books, the people I talked, artworks, transport,lifestyles,the poetry events, how did I avoid eating loaf of bread,the bartender girls and so on. 

In this trip, I could find out my unrevealed desire which I oppressed myself since my childhood. I have to admit that I never dream the things that are beyond my limit. This trip was exactly going beyond my limit in terms of budget and confidence to do solo travel.  Normally my previous business trips to the developed countries were just not more than passing glance. Honestly I do not spend my personal money for traveling internationally. I was not passionate that much. Being alone and more individualistic is still my challenge as I am extremely used to with collectivist society. I love interdependency but solely dependent is a must skill I require to develop. 

I have been in many countries but I went with group and it seemed easy and effortless in buying tickets, getting the transport and small miscellaneous things. It was not true and I came to self realization of confidence in doing unusual things. Every afternoon I finished my class, I went back to my hotel room,fell backwards to the bed and started questioning myself like what would happen if I do this and that. I had the fear and anxiety of happening something but I don't know what it is. After the trip, I felt like my fear and anxiety in my mind melted away.

On the flight I am going back to home, I watched a very good movie which displays the repetition of a girl's life and can't break the routine pattern. The girl woke up in the morning, her little sister poked her, she went to school, got roses as it was Cupid day, continued her day partying with her friends, her friend had a fight with a girl called Juliet who was a scapegoat in the class, all went back to home, encountered a car accident, the day was over and she woke up in the next morning with the poke of her little sister. Gradually she tried to crave being her, lived and treat others as she wanted to do. Her life span was only one day. Finally she enjoyed her life by treating others nicely and optimistically. It was a great transformation. From my point of view,the moral of the story is be happy at the present. I had a moment when I could not find interests and happiness in my life, work and daily routines. My life is kind of similar to the girl from the movie. It is genuinely true that I need to break my routine pattern and experience the new things. Maybe traveling is one of the options. I am wondering what would happen if I could change my lifestyle which is more adventurous. My learning for the whole trip is that life is so short and be happy and be yourself. I will be extending my egocentric attitude unless it doesn't harm others. Who knows that would be energy button of mine? 

Lwantaycho 

6:00 PM

15 July 2017